Dear maa,
Every night before sleeping
I ask myself, are you really gone?
The thought of you not being there shatters me and here I am,
Reproaching you for leaving me behind
The clock is ticking fast and I’m sitting there staring at the mirror,
Regretting each and every chance I had
The rosy pink smile is now vanishing and I feel even weak
I miss your fingers intertwined in mine, our hands held
As we walked on the beach, the waves niggling at our toes
I cry, thinking of you and wiping my tears, kissing my forehead
Every time I turned away from the darkroom, in fear
I try to hold on, believing that one day I will meet you, talk to you, hug you again
Surrounding myself with positive thoughts and trying to stay happy
But as soon as it's 3:30 am, I hear papa‘s voices in my head all over again
Crying for help, rushing you to the hospital
Hoping that you would be back soon
But maa, in a split second, everything changed
Where the mother was the centre of my existence, now that centre, that anchor is lost
And I miss you even more as the day passes.
-Navya Gupta
Instagram ID: @navyagupta14
