The feeling
To the days when you can’t sleep at night
To the days when you tell yourself it’s gonna be alright
These are the days when you know the sudden pain has hit you again
From the not enough days
To the self loathing maze
The songs that make you feel home
From the devils who left you out to roam
That’s when you’re numb
When their words only meant dissing
And now you’re left alone to do your missing
Your swollen eyes show the anguish
You hate yourself because they were selfish
What felt forever, wasn’t quite it
Crying doesn’t end your sorrow
But trying is your way to tomorrow
The constant worthlessness
The constant being a mess
Being happy is what you desire
The love is what you need
But that doesn’t give you a lead
Your fears are what you hide
Because you still don’t know why they lied
It makes you tired, but it doesn’t end
They told you what you lack
And now your euphoria has a crack
Your soul needs to shine
Your emotions need to stop the whine
It’s your time to heal
Time will heal the past
The pain, the misery, it won’t last
Your head will rise
Your crown will be precise
The feeling won’t chase your throne
It will be your night, it will be your day
You will loved, you will be cherished, it will just come in your way
You’ll soon be the only one someone wants
But this time, with no taunts
This won’t be one sided
You’ll get the care you deserve
That’s yours in someone’s reserve
Your maze will mend
You won’t have to pretend
The feeling won’t stay, the feeling won’t last
There’s no time to be sappy
Only your den to be happy.
-Alina Shanker
Instagram ID: @alinashanker
